Will’s point of view:
Will walked into the apartment; his blood was ice in his body. This couldn’t be happening… he couldn’t deal with this. Not now. Not when he just now was given the opportunity to be truly happy. He looked up and saw sonny, in mid step, on his tablet.
“I’m back,” he mumbled, closing the door behind him. This wasn’t supposed to happen. But this is what he gets…. How could he have been so stupid? So careless?
“Hey, how was Gabi?” sonny asked, placing his tablet on the counter.
“She, uh… she had her problem,” Will went over to the bed, taking his jacket off as he walked.
“But you made it go away, right?” sonny asked, giving will an encouraging smile.
“Wrong,” will said, as he thought to himself how he had put the problem there in the first place.
Will sat on the bed. Not even an hour ago he was lying in this bed, with sonny, and the two of them were tangled up together and will had never felt so right in his life. And now… now he was sitting on this bed forced to face something that would most likely cost him sonny. His heart ached, his breath caught, and his head pounded at the thought of losing sonny. The only source to any smile or ounce of joy he had felt in his life in a really long time.
“I don’t want to sound rude or anything, but that’s her problem… not yours,” sonny said, swaying back and forth on his feet.
Will wanted to cry. Because it wasn’t Gabi’s problem. It was both of their problems. And it was going to be a problem for sonny. Sonny would never look at him with adoring eyes or any eyes for that matter, ever. And will didn’t think he could live in a world where living without sonny in his life was what he’d have to do. He hung his head on his shoulders and shook his head. This was it for them. He could feel and practically see the hate in sonny’s eyes.
Sonny knelt down; placing his hands on will’s thighs, and will had to admit, despite everything, his body still shivered at sonny’s touch.
“Guess I said the wrong thing?” sonny asked, looking so innocent and perfect.
“No. you didn’t say or do anything wrong…” will took a deep breath, “but …we need to talk.”
“about Gabi’s problem?” sonny asked, now sitting on the bed next to will, rubbing his back in such a way will wanted to tackle him against the bed, forget what he just found out, forget the consequences he would be forced to face, and just be with sonny, be in sonny, have sonny in him… one last time. But he needed to rip this off like a Band-Aid. Because if he waited any longer, he wouldn’t do it. And therefore he would be lying to sonny. Just like his mother would do. And he is not his mother. He refuses to be like her. Or like whom she is trying to change from.
“About Gabi’s and my problem…” will whispered. He stood up from the bed. Walked over to the door and leaned against it. His throat was closing up.
“What do you mean?” sonny asked, facing will. Eye to eye.
Will closed his eyes. He couldn’t handle looking into those mocha eyes… he didn’t want to see the hurt that he was about to put in them, “Gabi’s pregnant.”
“Wow, are you serious?” sonny asked, “Does nick know?”
Will shook his head. He needed to keep talking. He needed to force himself to explain everything. But his throat was on fire. His heart was breaking. This was going to cost him sonny. Sonny. Sonny. Oh god, he was going to lose him.
“Wait a minute… how is this your problem?” sonny said, “That doesn’t make any since.”
“It’s my problem because…” will voice cracked. He felt a sob escape his lips. He felt tears well up and roll from underneath his closed eyes. His head pounded, and he banged it against the door, “it’s my problem because I’m the f-f… the fath-ther…” will gritted his teeth. He felt the room spin. This was it. His life just ended.
There was complete silence. Will wanted to look at sonny, wanted to run to him, wanted to be held by him, but he couldn’t. He couldn’t stand to see the look that had to be on sonny’s face. The look of hate. The look of pain. More tears rolled his face, and more sobs escaped his lips. And his chest pumped heavily, up and down.
“I don’t… I don’t understand… what do you mean?” sonny’s voice was barely a whisper. And it sounded strained. And it sounded a million miles away. And will couldn’t breathe.
“I slept with Gabi… before we got together… when I was still struggling with my sexuality… and and and now she’s pregnant. With my child. And I’m not ready for this, I made a mistake. It was stupid. I was hurt. I was angry. I was confused, I was so mad and. And. And I’m so sorry.” Will was rambling. His body was shaking, and his fear was pouring out of him, but he couldn’t close his mouth, “it was the night after the explosion. T had bumped into me. And he was calling me disgusting and saying that everyone else thought the same thing every time I turned my back. And he was so cruel. And I listened to him. I let it affect me. And then you tried to kiss me, and I panicked. Then I realized I was an idiot. And then I saw you with Brian. And then I was jealous. And hurt. And then I got in a fight with my dad. And it escalated. And then I ran into Gabi. And she was very upset about chad. But she wouldn’t tell me what had happened. And then it just sort of happened. And it was a mistake. And we regretted it. Talked about it. Then acknowledged it and moved past it. And then I got you in my life. And then I finally found peace with myself. And then I fell in l-… I was happy with you. And now it’s all ruined. I screwed up. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” Will’s sobs were becoming uncontrollable now. And he couldn’t form words any longer. And he crumbled to the ground. He placed his head against his knees and pulled at his hair. He wanted to scream he wanted to throw something.